LIFE

I'm going to start this post out with this trailer: (was recommended to me by someone very special to me)



     It's been a while since I have blogged, took a photo, worked on a project, focused on important things such as my happiness.  I really am trying to find my spot in life more than ever lately.
  I've thought about blogging for a living but that can take years and no for sure income.  I thought about my own photography business but my confidence is not where it needs to be.  I have dreamed of moving, traveling and finding a way to fill in the holes in my life.  I still come up with nothing. HOW DO I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?! Such a good question and I DON'T have the answer.  I'm 31 and thought I'd be in a much different place right now- nowhere near where I wanted to be or what I thought I'd be doing with my life. I'm hoping to take on a big change- NOW. Not yesterday and not tomorrow- NOW!
     I'm anxious, unhappy and frustrated with the spot I am in right now.  I am angry I let it get this far and that I have settled for something that has made me so unhappy for so long.  - I'm feeling like taking a leap of faith- a risk- a big risk- one that I may regret ... I'm scared, lost, confused, depressed... and I'm determined to change this. I may sink for a bit, but I am at that point where I need to take a chance- I need this change.  I am not going to go to detail on the internet because we all know how evil the internet can be when you talk about personal things (that's why I'd like to mainly blog about crafts and photos but I made this damn life tab in my blog and I love to talk about myself... yes. I just said that).  I do want to let anyone that may be randomly reading this that you have to follow your dreams- you got one shot to live your life to the fullest- GO DO IT!  Things work out. They always do. Think positively and always look up! I've always wanted to go to Iceland and I did it- I went! I saw this movie and Iceland was in it! YOU CAN TRAVEL! YOU CAN LIVE YOUR DREAMS!


 I have heard so many things lately,
"Are you sure about this?"
"Do you have a plan?"
So:
This helped:




So- go make those changes you have been waiting to make and hey- vent on a blog if you need to! <3



OH YEAH- THE SOUNDTRACK TO THAT MOVIE WALTER MITTY ROCKED:
SO INSPIRING!

I know I have been absent- I'm going to try to change this

I hope to change a lot of things this summer...

Here are a few photos of my baby. It was a really bad month. This cheers me up. <3

It's been a while...

     I'm just really trying to get a lot of things in my life organized. I'm trying to learn to love myself first. It's been hard. I hope that once I get some things organized in my life, I'll be able to work on the look of this blog and hopefully blog more! I even thought about giving up photography and just concentrating on an Etsy store with some of my crochet things but to be honest with you, I get withdrawal from the camera. I want to start to do more photos for ME. I don't want to impress anyone but myself. I'm learning this.  I think I have a new series I'm going to do since I have always wanted to do a series but could never come up with something original.  I think it will involve Chance of course! I already take so many photos of him<3.  Plus, the weather will be getting nicer soon and I can do more photos! It was really hard to get motivated this winter.  I also will still work on my store but I don't think I will open it until I finish some of the products and have a "stock" and that may take a while...so maybe by the end of the year.  I also was thinking of really trying to find what I really want to do in life and just chase it down. I am right and left brained. I have the logic side telling my adventurous side to not chase my crazy dreams. That's gonna have to change.

Anyways. Done with the rambles, I promise!
 2014 is gonna be good. I'm forcing it to be!

On a side note from the true point of the whole post which is featured below: I am down 22lbs! I went from 160 down to 138! I am so so so happy and proud of myself! I'll post some before and afters soon! Promise! <3 We kinda gave up on the happyhealthyyou blog. As much as we loved doing it, It got pretty rough and the whole training for a half marathon- WHO HAS TIME FOR THAT! I mean, I make time to work out but my life is pretty damn hectic. 10-11 hour work days=no social life. I spend a lot of time with my dog and my boyfriend or making food for eating cleaner/healthier. I hate the blogs that say "you always have time to do it" NO! NO I DON'T! I'm tired. I just worked, cooked dinner, showered, walked Chance, fed Chance, got lunch ready for tomorrow and I have only been home three hours and it's 11 o'clock at night and I am not a go to the gym in the morning person.... ok- sorry. so sorry. I just had a bitch moment. Done....

ON TO WHY I WAS ACTUALLY WRITING THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE....

I bought this today:

I finally bought it for myself! I don't know why I waited so long! I ended up buying my Blythe doll that has been waiting for me to find time to work on her and now maybe that I have some new tunes coming I can sit down and start on her as well! I know, I know, I have too many projects going on but if I don't have too full of a plate, I get sad.  I am a workaholic. Seriously. It's bad. I have to slow down a bit.  

SO I had to get a record. I mean I have some old school ones, but I wanted to get something newer....

Radical Face.

This is going to be heaven! Thankfully I can plug speakers into that bad boy above because the only thing that the reviews bothered me on was the speaker quality.  

This song, in particular, I can't wait to listen to! (I wanted a record player because it reminds me a lot of my childhood. I adore it.)

My wishlist is getting smaller!
LINK: Pinterest Wish List
But now my Vinyl wishlist is growing....
LINK: Vinyls Wish List
But this is what I have gotten so far!
LINK: Accomplished Wish List

It's fun to work towards different items! I do need some new clothes so those may be next! Time to save up!

So- goodnight for now!
<3 enjoy the tune!

Shannon

30 Seconds to Mars

I swore I wouldn't post my obsession with music on this blog and post music videos but I just can't help it.... I really can't.

Rosie Hardy

This girl is my hero! The reason I started taking photos was because of her! 

You can find her photos  HERE
Please check them out!
Take the time to check out some of her work and her latest speech that I think was just amazing! Go Rosie <3 Thank you for inspiring so many!

Sigur Ros

                          I thought this video was so beautiful, I cried. The dancing, emotion, connection, music and its my favorite band! SIGUR ROS! Omg - just amazing. I have no words. Music does something to me! <3

Please take the time to watch this- then really think about it....

I needed to hear this today- how about you!? Did you really listen, think about what was being said? I did- and I have to do something to change my world. My life. I have to make ME happier!