Mothers Day Swimming

Ah! A blog post! I gotta do this more often. I really want to start crafting and writing. I think it would be so good for me but to be honest- a new house, planning a wedding and adopting a second dog has my hands overly full.  I want to blog about so many things and make it an awesome website and get rid of my paid websites (since I'd like to save money) but I really have NO time to do these things.  I did, however, find some time to edit this gem. I hope you enjoy and I will be trying to get my life in order so I can focus on my photography and my blog more in the near future. I miss taking photos.

A Walk in the Park!

So much fun! Nice day in March we all took a walk at River view Park and it was worth bringing the GoPro!

Our Aruba Trip

This was an amazing trip and there would be too much to write about here - I will just post the video and you can see what a great time we did have!

My tattoo!

      So, I just realized after all these months, I never posted my tattoo on here.  I LOVE it and it was done by a very dear friend on mine- Jon!  That makes it all the more special!  I don't have a lot of photos of it right now since it's been a long cold winter and I haven't been wearing any short sleeves.  I almost forget I even have it during this time of year!  I can't wait to wear some short sleeves and ... BATHING SUITS! Spring is here and I can't wait for it to warm up a bit! Anyways. Ha. That's it for this post! <3

Autumn Walk

This was seriously a spur of the moment, I NNEEEEDDD to shoot something creative photo- I really don't think I LOVE how it turned out, but I liked it. It was shot after work, in a bad mood and in a rush since I have a wedding I should be editing. I'm done with weddings. It sucks the life out of me. If I had six months to edit it- fine, but I can't do four weeks while working a full time job. I drive myself nuts. I think I'll just stick to the small stuff for now. Couples shoots, kids shoots and pet shoots. Anyways, I feel my creative juices bubbling up. Halloween is around the bend and I still don't have a costume ready- this is a BIG deal for me, I'm getting a new tattoo on the 18th from my friend that I haven't seen in way too long and am pretty excited about that, I am down officially 27lbs since I started my life change and we are looking for a house after we just got back from Aruba (I'll try to blog about Aruba at some point - next year lol)! My plate is too freaking full...I have a to do list that has been put aside for months and months and a doll I have been working on painting for almost a year now- yes, I said a doll. Everything I LOVE to do is always shoved to the side. This post will be positive- I'm going to vow that after I finish this wedding, I am making myself, FORCING myself to have "me" time for my creative juices. I'm just so full of confusion and I feel lost. I have STILL not found my place in life yet- it's frustrating. I can't wait to get a damn house. I can't wait to get organized and I can't wait to figure me out. Well my tattoo will be of the icelandic compass. It's pretty neat actually-maybe that will help me find my way!

So - back to this post about my photo- I'm starting to blog about life under my photography tab and that's not right ;) hahahaha Here is the before:

and the after:

Seriously ran outside to shoot in five minutes and was back inside- good news though- Chance took a big poop! TMI I know I know- thought it was funny though.

I hope you enjoy it! I may fiddle with it more when I have some time but I just needed to do something creative. With my buddy. My best friend

LIFE

I'm going to start this post out with this trailer: (was recommended to me by someone very special to me)



     It's been a while since I have blogged, took a photo, worked on a project, focused on important things such as my happiness.  I really am trying to find my spot in life more than ever lately.
  I've thought about blogging for a living but that can take years and no for sure income.  I thought about my own photography business but my confidence is not where it needs to be.  I have dreamed of moving, traveling and finding a way to fill in the holes in my life.  I still come up with nothing. HOW DO I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?! Such a good question and I DON'T have the answer.  I'm 31 and thought I'd be in a much different place right now- nowhere near where I wanted to be or what I thought I'd be doing with my life. I'm hoping to take on a big change- NOW. Not yesterday and not tomorrow- NOW!
     I'm anxious, unhappy and frustrated with the spot I am in right now.  I am angry I let it get this far and that I have settled for something that has made me so unhappy for so long.  - I'm feeling like taking a leap of faith- a risk- a big risk- one that I may regret ... I'm scared, lost, confused, depressed... and I'm determined to change this. I may sink for a bit, but I am at that point where I need to take a chance- I need this change.  I am not going to go to detail on the internet because we all know how evil the internet can be when you talk about personal things (that's why I'd like to mainly blog about crafts and photos but I made this damn life tab in my blog and I love to talk about myself... yes. I just said that).  I do want to let anyone that may be randomly reading this that you have to follow your dreams- you got one shot to live your life to the fullest- GO DO IT!  Things work out. They always do. Think positively and always look up! I've always wanted to go to Iceland and I did it- I went! I saw this movie and Iceland was in it! YOU CAN TRAVEL! YOU CAN LIVE YOUR DREAMS!


 I have heard so many things lately,
"Are you sure about this?"
"Do you have a plan?"
So:
This helped:




So- go make those changes you have been waiting to make and hey- vent on a blog if you need to! <3



OH YEAH- THE SOUNDTRACK TO THAT MOVIE WALTER MITTY ROCKED:
SO INSPIRING!

I know I have been absent- I'm going to try to change this

I hope to change a lot of things this summer...

Here are a few photos of my baby. It was a really bad month. This cheers me up. <3